Yesterday, I was sharing these feelings with Ahoova, my electrologist, who also doubles as my second therapist. Ahoova reminded me of how far I've come in this past year. In a few weeks I will have been having electrolysis for a full year. So, she has really seen all of the changes over time, and with all humility, I have to agree my transition thus far has been an amazing experience, and even though I am nowhere near done, I am so grateful for how far I've come. Ahoova reminded me, also, that had I been married this past year there's no possible way I would have made anywhere near the progress I've made. Of course, she's right, and I appreciated her reminding me to consider all sides of the situation. Other bittersweet anniversaries will continue to pass by and there will be more nights like this, but it is me, the real me, who confronts them and lives through them, carrying on - alone - but with as much integrity, honesty, and self-awareness as I can possibly muster.
I'm sure many of you have lived through similar things. Perhaps someone out there has just come out to his or her partner or spouse, or is struggling to build up the courage to do so. I have no magic words to make things instantly safe and easy, but I can tell you that you are not alone. There are many friends and future friends here online who understand, who bring their own special gifts and experiences with them, and many who are willing, even enthusiastically so, to listen, to interact, and to support you. Thank you to so many of you who have done exactly that for me over the past year. I hope I can come close to following the examples you have so graciously demonstrated to me.